“Old days”

July 2012 August 2012 November 2012

FAMILY

I want to do the impossible which to excel in whatever i do to support my family.

I want to earn lots of money and bring my family on a trip without them paying

I want to do something huge and regconised in order to make my parents proud of me infront of their friends and relatives

I want to be able to talk to my family like talking to my friends.

I want to be as sensible as my cousins so that my mum dont have to scold me everyda

I want to be smart and not give the impression of "lousy" so that everyone in my family wont see me like they always do

I want to be someone presentable so that my bro dont have to cover his face or "hide" his sister infront of his friends

I want to be close to flawless in the appearance so that I can feel good infront of the pretty people in my family


I want to be a good specialist in order to cure that illness that is spreading within my huge family.

I want to be able to let my family know that I am able to do things they think i cant


I want to give my parents a big house with all of us living together. Not separated.

I want to be able to convince my dad to quit his bad habits like smoking so that parents will quarrel less.



I want to convince my parents I can do that and not to make them worry about $$ and my future just like how they are worried over my useless brother.

I want to let them know that although I might not be clever but I know what I am doing and not do just cos that i am "childish"




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FRIENDS


I want to be someone supportive.

I want to be a good listener and "story-teller"


I want to be someone that can be able to be there 24/7 without much control from my family.

I want to have back my old friends but then I know things are different now

I want to be someone that is able to ease their pain and change them from bad to good

I want to be a friend that even if im not there with them, they must know that i am always here for them


I want to go back to secondary school and not meet huijuan and then I will not be having such lousy grades.

I want to have my old secondary clique back


I want to tell the person I gave up for that one reason of her being intolerant over dieting.

I want to have the ability of turning time back and be a good friend back then.



I want to tell the person I let go off that im sorry for not putting effort.

I want to become pretty so that maybe my friend won't then try "pushing" guys to me


I want to be the first person my friends will think of when they are sad,angry,happy,etc. (thick skinned)

I want to have friends who are behave like who they are without hiding and same goes for me




I want to be as mature as I could be so that I can give appropriate advice and not stuck with what I do not know.

I want to let my friends know that the fact that we can be friends is  a bless and fate and I am thankful to have them.


I want to be a person that gives friends securities and make them comfortable with me

I want to let one friend knows that despite the shortage of contact, she is still quite a important friend to me.




I want to be a friend that is someone useful and selfless

I want to let my friends know that words hurt but then, hiding hurts more



I want to go back to the time when i ditch my friend and left her alone to face all the troubles, not bringing her out to take breath or so.

I want to be a good friend

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FUTURE

I want to open childcare or kindergarten in the future

i want to open a home for homeless people to stay

 I want to open a NGO that allows people of all ages with all problems to come talk to us and find our NGO as their home


i want to buy a house next to the beautiful sea for real.

I want to try living alone in other countries and have friends/family visiting me



I want to go to different foundations and see their conditions

I want to source for overseas volunteering trips and join them


I want to save up and really go for marine biologist in Melbourne

I want to be able to use my skills or abilities to help people and see the smiles on their face.



I want to change people live. At least one.

I want to let those people know that they are never alone.


I want to be someone big, impactful and inspiring like how those people inspire me and the public too.

I want to be true to myself and do whatever I want in the future.




I want to create more awareness to the public more about all those less fortunate people.

I want to let the future me to continue know the importance of me-time

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FOOD


I want to eat cereal prawns so badly

I want to go to some concept cafe now.

I want to eat korean bbq


i want to go to every huge food centre in singapore.

I want to try baking


I want to be a food blogger

I want to eat mala


I want to tell everyone that cooking need to put LOVE in it to cook then it will taste nice and touch people's heart

I want to join soup project to help cooking for those people



I want to go to _ lane to eat something great there

I want to travel around different parts of the world and source for food


I want to bring HOELIJUN to the things she wanna eat and disturbing everyone from

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WHY


Why some human beings are unable to forgive and forget?

Why some friends like to say super hurtful words when they themselves know how it hurts?



Why is it so hard to be truthful at times?

Why must we always compare with the fact that we are friends?



Why must one think of so many things when the answer is just right infront of their eyes?

Why must it be so complication btw relationships?


Why is it that we human beings unknowingly pull ourselves down and make it as though we have the worst personalities in the world?

Why must we always try to put so heavy burdens on us when actually there are times, we dont need to?



Why is it that we cant be perfect?!?!?!


Why is money dominating the world?




Why is it that some people doesnt seems to see/listen to the truth that we spectators can see so clearly?

Why is it so hard to accomplish dreams?



 Why is there such word as RESPONSIBILITY?

Why can't people see that all we want is to help and not dominate the club?



Why some just cant love themselves?

Why are there people filled with negative emotions 24/7?



Why is my fishy so cute?!

Why lijun so smart?